i'm so so BLESSED!!!!

i feel so so blessed that i'm in Malaysia. i feel so blessed that i'm free to dream, to play, to travel, to eat , to live ,to love ,to hate ,to laugh , to smile, to shop, to speak, to learn, to be a girl, to cook, to dance, to sleep, to work, ....and most important of all, to have a future waiting for me to discover.... I'm so blessed!!!

i was watching Nat Geo's Top 30 minutes ago. nat geo's viewers get to pick 30 of their fav documentary shown on tv in an online poll. the best part is 30 local asian tv stars and celebrities were apart of this show too...you'll get to see them countdown ur favorites and give their reviews on them too...it was shown every weeknights at 11pm starting June. however i missed this show because of Hitler Chan...okay not his fault ...i'm just making up stories...=P
No. 4 fav documentary was an eye opener and it really caught my attention....
this documentary showed the world how distant, isolated, inaccesseble North Korean is from the world...goodness gracious.
all the things i know bout this country is that it was a communist country...and i guess that's all.. oh ya...country with an unlimited access of plutonium...nuclear weapons...
all these bull shit info i have in my brain is so so little...
Nat Geo's team of reporters including Lisa Ling and a bunch of doctors from Nepal(they are the true heroes..) got access to this country..and they've filmed the entire journey from nepal to pyongyang(n.korea) ...actually their main motive was to provide medical needs to the blinds in that country.
according to them, almost 10% of their population died of starvation in the past years....and hundreds of north koreans are blind due to cataract...this includes children as young as babies!
to us, cataract is a condition normally u find amongst old folks....and not babies...
they performed more than 1000 surgeries during their 10 days stay...Bravo!Bravo!...i salute them...
what caught my attention was the people...they are terribly....okay...i don't wanna jugde them...they are practically brainwashed by the ideology called 'juche'...(google juche or n.korea for more info...)
i don't blame them for their ignorance...as the saying goes, ignorance is bliss! Hell no ...i feel terribly sicked to find ZERO cars (other than Nat Geo's van) on the roads...there's no car in the highways!!!
in Malaysia, you won't find a single road without vehicles!it's impossible!!!it's always jam-packed during rush hours...
they have no internet. no cell-phone. no P.S I Love You or Pride and Prejudice to read...only books written by Kim Il Sung, founder of North Korea....
they use glass bottles for I.V drips...glass bottles you know??...
they don't have laser tech...no knowledge on how to use medical equipments.....no actual certified doctors...
and they worships "Great Leader" ....they bow at his potrait!...interesting....hmm...
and they hate americans...Lisa Ling was the one and only american there...interesting...
there are many statues and potraits of the "Great Leader"....every where...and ur not allow to take pictures...
if ur suspected being disloyal to this regiment, u'll be put in prison....so does ur family...
there's this soldier who managed to escape to China and his family members were executed. according to him,a bunch of children were shot bcuz they caught a mice for dinner...u can hardly fill ur stomach in prison...
i believe in freedom...u certainly can't find it there....every move every action every words, u are under watchful eyes...
i'm blessed.i'm so blessed.i'm so so blessed...

it's not your car...so don't be JEALOUS....and stop pretending to be the superior!!!

it's not your car so please don't pretend to be the superior...and stop finding reasons to deny this fact....no one will blame you...only you who love to find excuses to blame others....pumping petrol with cash or credit card, with or without bonuslink card is non of your business...though it was given to you by permission doesn't mean ur the superior...
SO STOP PRETENDING TO BE LIKE ONE....PLEASE DO THAT TO KELVIN AND NOT AT HOME!!!!!and STOP BE SO JEALOUSY IT"S VERY IDIOTIC AND U LOOK STUPID DOING SO!!!!REMEMBER THAT!!!KEEP THAT IN MIND....DON'T MAKE ME LAUGH OUT LOUD AT UR STUPIDITY AGAIN...PLEASEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE

ahh...cair....

how i wish i was that girl...mmm....*melts*=P

::horoscopes::

do you believe in horoscopes???
i don't!! yet i read it everyday...hah...dunno why...i guess it's mere curiousity kua.....??
anyway, today's paper said ...k...i quote it is better...
"Pretty good stars for love and affection." my reaction=huh::rolling eyes::
and " there seems to be some intensity here...." LOL
not that i wanna believe..but...sy gave me a souvenir after duty..my reaction??...i just said thanks..with an awkward feeling..
i guess it's about time to give some explanation...
arhhhh....guilty,guilty, guilty...i'm so gonna rot in hell...and b4 it happened, i'll be hurt by tons of guys....=S...

so near yet so far

have you ever experienced this situation??..
i'm in the same building with someone yet it feels like we are so far apart.....strange isn't it??hehe

i always deny the fact that time and age does set ppl apart. but i no longer feel so...
izit because we have changed tru time??
even when i'm stayin so near to her workplace, yet i find it hard to meet...however i find that after being apart for almost two years now, our relationship grew stronger and we are more likely to cherish the time we spent together...but i still love the silent moments we share...=)..

muhibah

i hated this word very much...i hate it when teachers used it in school....i hate ppl pretending to instil 'muhibah' spirit in the hearts of students...apparently, tho we don't hate ppl of other race but we don't exactly like them...i'm not a racist..but in certain situation, it kinda turned me into a racist..for example, i have the suckiest librarian teacher (need not be named)...
ppl can deny as much as they want but there is still racism in each and everyone of us...

fyi, i went to this charity carnival in sekolah khas this morning. it was good!the food was delicious...of course....mommy's and social workers cook wan wat!
mary ruth baked her famous brownies too...didn't missed out 'ta-pau'ing that...=P
it was nice to see ppl get together in the name of charity....tho some do it for fame and pride, there are others who are really sincered to do something for the unfortunate ones...

i didn't actually liked the idea of donating huge sum of money to NGOs...esp when it involves mock cheque, photographers and reporters...
money will ended up in places which were not suppose to be...(pockets esp)...

so nx time, donate things other than money...

JuSt SO you KnoW

I shouldn't love you but I want to
I just can't turn away
I shouldn't see you but I can't move
I can't look away
And I don't know how to be fine when I'm not
'Cause I don't know how to make a feeling stop
Just so you know
This feeling's taking control of me
And I can't help it
I won't sit around, I can't let him win now
Thought you should know
I've tried my best to let go of you
But I don't want to
I just gotta say it all
Before I go
Just so you know
It's getting hard to be around you
There's so much I can't say
Do you want me to hide the feelings
And look the other way
And I don't know how to be fine when I'm not
'Cause I don't know how to make a feeling stop
This emptiness is killing me
And I'm wondering why I've waited so long
Looking back I realize
It was always there just never spoken
I'm waiting here...been waiting here

random 2

my computer is back from the 'hospital'!!!yay=p...and here i am bloging..again.. told ya i'm kinda addicted to the comp nowadays. not just addicted. i'm so attached to it..


btw, sooks and bin they all are going to kay-land-tan tonight...hope they will have a fun trip...i bet they will.. anyway, pray with me that they'll have a save trip too...*fingers crossed*


leaving me and mims in school tomo all by ourself...*sobsob*..=(





anyway, i've uploaded pics from mims camera..show you huh...:-)

we took this on our way to kuala jasin.. we saw some elephant droppings by the shore too...hehe

Help!!!i'm being attacked!

i've been directly attacked!!...by a stupid cbox comment on my club's blog....
i knew that i'll be hated by ppl once i accept the president post in KPA... seriously who on earth have never ever criticise a president. All of us do!
hahaha....pls don't deny...we all criticise Bush for killing innocent ppl...don't you???
anyway, leave political issue aside. story cut short. i was attacked by a stupid boy named 'nt'.. have no idea who is that....
he insulted my leadership and claimed that he'll bring KPA to the next level! trash talking from the start till the end on how brillliant he is if he's a president...
i'll wait and see...
being a president is not a game...you won't lose definitely....but you will fall...
every eyes is on you...every decision you make are under watchful eyes...and sometimes evil ppl want you to fail so badly they play hipocrisy...
what i'm trying to say is a president musn't always be right but he/she must always stand by his/her decision every single time....i know i'm not always rite...but i tried my best... what more u want??!!!....i'll give anyone this post if he/she is eligible ....
i don't care who or what he wants...but he'll never get what he wishes....that's one thing for sure.
ahhh....it's like a joke you know. ppl like him loves trash-talking yet wanna remain anonymous.. if he's such a dare-devil..he'll let the whole world know by using his real name and NOT INITIALs...
fyi, you can't fit your humongous ego in such a SMALL head!
this is not a masquerade party....so leave your mask at home!!!!!!!!

random

gosh...i don't know what's happening to me. i'm facing my computer everyday since holidays had started....
i just got this habit of switching on the computer every single time i'm in the room.. i need to stop this!...i was never a computer addict and now, i'm transforming into one...
i was reading blogs of some senoirs for my school. and damn they can write so well. i mean their blogs are way better and more interesting than mine...not that i envy them..they write everything in such detail. i can never do that.
at first this blog was meant for my personal use. haihz..but in the end, people discovered it and started viewing ...thanks to me. i still can't forget my stupidity. i'm really a blogspot illliterate until now...
please don't get offended. it's not that i don't like you viewing. i kinda wanna write more personal stuffs here than in xanga.
thoughts of privatising this blog...crushed....=P
anyway, sex and the city is gonna be in cinemas soon!...guess when...
24 July!!!!! my bday!!!!