why i am not a girly girl: reason 1

i don't know how to tie a plait!

yes

honest to god

i can't tie one for myself

my hands are kinda cacat

i always seek help if i want to wear a plait

although I realllyyyy LURVE plaits and braids

HAHA

I'd really love to wear one of these hairstyles next year! cos i think it suits my lovely dress ::wink::

aren't they simple

cute

sophisticated

edgy

sweet

and gorgeous!?

i'm an emotional monster.
because i'm short. people say. but i digress.

shopping list
stop-crying potion
headache pill
stop-being-so-emotional potion

the black room

a white baby grand

 in a dark room

just me, alone

striking all the right keys



woah can it be sadder than this? damn

wake up lonely with you by my side

one more night it doesn't feel

there are movies playing in your eyes

you dream of our fortunes

but you're wrong

i don't belong to you

 

the moon is the only friend i have outside

one more drink and i'll be healed

i told you the words and then knew it was a lie

i wish i could offer an appeal

you're wrong

i don't belong to you

 

what i'd give for that first night when you were mine

tried with all that i have to keep you alive

i wasn't taught this way

with a thousand things to say

i was born with a broken heart

what i'd give for that first night when you were mine

thought you were mine

 

so i'll put this cigarette to bed

pull some sheets from off your side

i put my arm around you safe in the night

still dreaming of fortune

but you're wrong

i don't belong

Belong, Cary Brothers

10 things i’d say to my sixteen-year-old-self

1- Follow your instincts because they are darn right.

2- despite getting bullied and bossed around by her, your big sis loves you very much(she’ll learn to appreciate your presence especially when you’re away *winks*)

3- need not bug dad to bring you to Penang. You will be travelling up and about north of Malaysia. *hint* you’ll end up studying there lol

4- it’s okay to like chemistry because you need it in life. because chemistry IS life. despite having people around telling you otherwise.

5- it’s okay to skip school =P

6- it’s okay to ignore the boys.(that is not being cocky. trust me.) you’ll meet a keeper soon lol.


7- listen to mom and dad but do what you think is right.

8- people will still stare. ignore them. walk tall. sit straight. and glare.

9- you will still be categorise as cute, even when you are in your 20s. sigh. just live with it. lol.

10- you are still daddy’s little gal. i think you can live with it. haha.

my new found love...

tweeter

no LIKE buttons. (YES!)

no ODD friends whom I can't UNFRIEND.

i CAN post gazillion times a day and WHO CARES!







p.s. missing you already

didn't know it then

it'd be like this
how it felt
sigh

exam period now
i'm home
excited?
yes!
social butterfly? still not back yet
sorry

nerd-mode?
still off
but i'm trying my best to study and keep everything in my head

sigh

well i'm getting bored of myself
help me!

nah

he's (one of) the  best
original singer/songwriter/musician

took me months to be able to download it so please take a listen okayyy =P

i'd only choose the good notes

the very moment i heard the news i thought of dad

i didn't know why

but i have not stopped thinking of him since yesterday morning

called mom yesterday night after the wake

i wished i'm home

she's a strong person. stronger than me. stronger than anyone of us could have imagined.

this chapter may not end as smoothly as she might have wanted or hoped for but after today (and the funeral on sunday) i wish our prayers and blessings will be heard to help her and her family to move on.

i'd picked all the good notes to play. henceforth, it'll accompany me as the day comes to an end.

no big celebrations required.

Bises