i don't like pretty pretty characters cos they looked fake to me.
i like watching dramas portraying dsyfunctional families.
i like watching how families tear each other apart yet they managed to find ways to reconciliate and to love and accept each other again.
no matter how much i wanna kill my sister, not literally, i will always try to find a way to forgive her. i guess that's what everybody else in my family is doing.
although i know, clearly, they are just fictional characters but somehow i see them in my everyday live. people like them, they are always around me.
having stayed here, all by myself in Penang made me realised i've taken a lot of things for granted.
i missed the regular arguments with my sisters.
i missed my dad's childish act.
i missed his nagging and his philosophical talks
i missed my mom's soup. i always rant whenever she cooks watercress soup. i'm sorry mom.
i missed hugging her.
i missed making fun of her. HAHA.
i missed Mike's and Blossom's body odour.
i missed teasing Junior
i missed Lady. she was a good listener. now, she can't hear me =( and she barely responds =(

Facebook takes friendships to a whole new level

http://thestar.com.my/columnists/story.asp?col=butthenagain&file=/2010/10/18/columnists/butthenagain/7227651&sec=But Then Again

went QB yesterday for

an early dinner at Winter Warmers

bon apetite!

tuna waffles.... yum!

so satisfying... XPPPP

intan's baked potatoes with cheese.... superb!

i'll definitely make this during the hols hehe =D

after dinner, shopping!

after shopping, Starbucks!

tried creme brulee frap... not too bad... caramel macchiato's still my fav

after starbucks... the gals(including syam) wanna go for another round since it's a saturday nite and all... haha

so we went Crepe House

they have all sorts of crepes and pancakes..  super yum-may... >,<

desserts at 12am... gila duh

traffic light! (it's the crepe's name) ^^

after Crepe House we went to the next door cafe HAHA Coffee Island...

so in total we went to 4 places for food, within a night!... that's why we are boomboompow... ROFL

"oh my gosh, how come u have the time to finish all the assignment??"
"*sigh* so many things to study, I don't know where to start"
"have you studied?? die la, I haven't!!!"
"how to study this subject?? how???"
"have you studied?"
"*sigh* so many things to do"

OH MY GAWWDDDDDD! ::rolled eyes::
i don't know why i have to face all these crap shit every single day!!!!!!! every day! every day!
did you know i am always trying very hard not to yell and say SHADDAP!!! to every single one of them??
i am very afraid that some day i might lose my composure and say that
and now i've even become one of them. not the annoying people part. but the pretentious part.
for example, when she asked me if i've studied for a test, i'd give this facial expression "=(" and "sigh" and "innocent look" and say "no" then "sigh" again and finally say "so many things to study, i don't know where to start"...... because i'd realised i don't wanna take in any more of her goddamn shit so i'm giving her back some of it!

the best part about this is she doesn't even know i was being sarcastic! SEE MAN!

The Only Exception, you

When I was younger I saw my daddy cry
And curse at the wind
He broke his own heart
And I watched
As he tried to reassemble it
And my momma swore that she would never let herself forget
And that was the day that I promised
I'd never sing of love
If it does not exist

But darling,
You, are, the only exception
You, are, the only exception
You, are, the only exception
You, are, the only exception


Maybe I know, somewhere deep in my soul that love never lasts
And we've got to find other ways to make it alone, or keep a straight face
And I've always lived like this keeping a comfortable, distance
And up until now I had sworn to myself that I'm content with loneliness
Because none of it was ever worth the risk


Well,
You, are, the only exception
You, are, the only exception
You, are, the only exception
You, are, the only exception

ramblings

if I'm here blogging everyday it doesn't mean I'm super free it means I'm super stressed out... i wanna yell scream and shout so badly.. it's just that the "dr. jekyll" in me wouldn't allow me to do it ... yes i did mentioned that i'm a doppelganger...
intan was right about me.. and her too... i'm(we're) at a rebelling age.. LMAO... yes... i rebel after my teen years... in my early twenties... LOLL.... yes i'm a weirdo thank you =)

but i'm glad i found so many ways to release all the stress and anger in me..... this blog, of course. swimming and jogging.. and music... ahhhh.... i'm so so blessed to have the opportunity to learn music. i love you daddy and mummy. XOXO. music... i'll die without it.. i'll die if i don't play for a day.. i'm so thankful to have a guitar with me here in penang.. or else i would die.. died-ed.... haha ... the after- effect of playing is just indescribably awesome... words just can't simply describe that feeling... <3

*breathe in*breathe out*
i feel much much better now... =)

oh... Paramore's the only exception.. i'm so in love with the lyrics! was playing this song on my guitar just now.. hehe... super SS right... haha i knowXDDD

and i had a strange dream ... i dreamt myself singing somewhere.... i don't know.. somewhere.. what i could remember was i was on stage with my guitar and it was super bright... haha... what a strange dream.... =P and i was smiling, happily.......

i'm so freaking exhausted! today's the worst day of my life. period. besides lunchtime, I literally did not stop working, for even a sec! my day started with inorg lecture at 8am. immediately after that I rushed to the library to do VZA. then I walked uphill to KeMa and then downhill to Prof Lim's office. had a short chat with him. handed in my report. then uphill again to Anjung for lunch. after that i went straight back to my room. and I started writing my lab report. drawed 3 graphs. by 4pm, I managed to complete my report. *relieved* then I showered. then back to library. completed VZA, but haven't edit it yet. by 7.45pm, I walked out of the library for a quick dinner (and while eating I was still on my lappie) cos I have Org Chem class from 8 to 10pm.gosh, I think I'm going crazy. or worse, I think I'm going crazier. VZA assignment due Wednesday. Org Chem due Fri. Lab report due Thurs. and, I have 4 tests to study! great! what a "great" uni life ^^"

Kill time here!

if you have lotsa time to spare,
READ this~ http://thestar.com.my/lifestyle/story.asp?file=/2010/10/3/lifefocus/7122476&sec=lifefocus 

I Wish You Love

I wish you bluebirds in the spring

To give your heart a song to sing

I wish you health

And more than wealth

I wish you love

And in July some lemonade

To cool you in some leafy glade

I wish you health

And more than wealth

I wish you love

My breaking heart and I agree

That you and I could never be

So with my best

My very best

I set you free

I wish you shelter from the storm

A cozy fire to keep you warm

And most of all

When snowflakes fall

I wish you love

And most of all

When snowflakes fall

I wish you love

i'm such a freaking doppelganger

when I'm in stress, I will tend to miss home terribly. I'll be super emotional. and then anger starts building up. anyone that annoys the hell out of me I'll hate them super badly. after that i'll feel super guilty and start hating myself. then i'll start projecting the anger in me to my blog. stoooopid!

p.s. I miss home! I wanna cry when i hear mummy's voice. I wanna go home T_T