Last Day!

Day 30: A vivid memory

So many memories to choose from! GAH!

This is definitely not my favourite memory. nevertheless the most vivid memory ever. that I could never forget.
You see, when I was young, either my mom or dad would accompany me to piano examinations. Of course between the two of them I would always prefer my mom though she would always smother me with her don't-be-afraid vibe. Dad on the other hand was always cool and calm and collected. That freaked me out even more because I had to pretend I was as cool and calm and collected as him. Trust me, I was not calm nor cool nor enjoying the moment. I could barely feel my fingers! So days leading up to exam, I'd pray super duper hard for my mom to be my company. Yeah, what a stressful childhood.

So now, I'm gonna give myself a big pat on my back for making it to the end of June!

and thanks for sticking with me!
Can't wait for July! and of course August! Big days ahead and big decisions to make.
haha!

Happy July guys!

Letting Go.

Gosh, it's the end of the challenge tomorrow!
Can't believe June is gone. Just like that!

Anyways, for today's topic I need to relate to the word letting go.

Letting go, for me at the moment would be,
Comfort.
and
Security.
Since I am about to leave my current job and move to Nilai. Yes, I am. Haha. Hope the transition goes well for me! *fingers crossed*

song song bluessss

Day 28: Five songs or pieces of music that speak to you or bring back memories. Use Grooveshark or YouTube to include them in the post

(in no particular order)
ONE! Prettiest friend.
I can never forget how obsessed we were, back in Penang, over this song! HAHA

TWO!

A Song For You. <3 p="">

(Best concert EVER!)

 

Isn't he AWESOME!?

 

 

3!

She's even more beautiful

(Funny and cute song. Lot's of humor)

Yannick Bovy a.k.a Michael Buble Junior

 

 

FOUR!

Kris Allen's To Make You Feel My Love.

(love his rendition of this song. Best lyrics ever!)

 

5IVE!

when life throws me lemon

 

 

you say

I won't give up!

 



Only picture(s)

Day 27!

I haven't been to anywhere lately. So not many pictures to share.
Here one picture of a place I will soon be going

 

BAKO!

Letter to you

Thanks for reading my super-boring-all-rants-uninteresting blog. HAHA!

p.s. I don't know what to say but thank you!

Girl Rising

Day 25: Something you read online. Leave a link and discuss, if you'd like.
I am a strong believer in equality. I know many who doesn't believe so. Gender Equality? To many it is bullshit. To me, it is even a bigger bullshit to call it bullshit.
Why us girls can't have the same things or achieve what the opposite sex could. We too are humans.
I am appalled and saddened to read on how girls around the world (and even in Malaysia) get exploited by not just men, women as well. How ridiculous.
Though I may not have the rights to judge ones culture but this is the 21st century for Gods' sake.
Girls ain't weak and stupid as you think we are. (I am not a sexist. I'm just asking for fair treatment)
Our place is not in the kitchen only. We can do many things. Trust me.
So boys and girls, I am sharing HERE a project I think would get people to change their perspective on the female gender. At least.

"You're fat already!"

Today on the challenge: Something someone told you about yourself that you'll never forget.

I used to be really skinny and small when I was really young. If I were to show you my health card back in primary school (Yeah I am still keeping it! HAHA) you will definitely laugh your arses off seeing how I progressed in height and weight over the course of 6 years. HAHA. no joke.

So when I was about 7 or 8 (I guessed) my dad's childhood friend Uncle Albert (We call him Uncle Bert HAHA) - he'd always visit us after work or in the weekends- held my hand and showed me something he said is fats. He happily showed me and say "you're not skinny anymore!". I, believed him and immediately showed my mom. Everyone at home laughed. The end. HAHA.

I'd never forget that because when I was young my mom used to feed me with loads of food and supplements to help my growth and gain weight. (I guessed she was in a bit of stress because people began questioning if my parents actually fed me.) Laugh all you want but it's true. It didn't work at all. Not until I reached puberty that I started gaining a bit of weight. (Height I'm not too sure but at one point or another I just stopped growing.) and from this point onwards, my weight go up and down and up and down. It's crazy. Trust me. . No more, no less. But I can gain weight like crazy. and loose 'em easily if I am in the period of losing weight. Like now.

So yeah, I was actually a tad happy when he told me that. HAHA.

Top Three

By now most of you should have known me....... and my worst traits.
(it's gonna be a redundant post I guess)

so Topic for Day 24 is........ ::drumrolls::

Yeah 3 worst traits

Number ONE

I am hyper-sensitive. I cry when I am sad. I cry when I am hurt. I cry when I am angry. I may also cry when I am super happy. and when I laugh too much.

In a nutshell, I am a cry baby.

Number TWO.

I am temperamental. Yes. I sold myself with this trait before. (Read Day 11) If you are still buying it then THANKS! HAHA

Number THREE.

I am selfish. I always expect people to return the same courtesy I give. More, I am fine with it. Give me less or none, I will actually hate you.

Things Life told me...

Today's topic is things that school won't teach you

1. Every thing in this world, it is about money. You need it to survive. And people change (though they may continue to deny) because of money.
2. To think outside the box. "Learn to read people around you. It's for protection sake", Life said.
3. People will hurt you. You might (naively) expect people to return the same courtesy you gave. But sorry, Life told me "you are too naïve." Life said, "don't expect too much. You'd hurt yourself more. because human beings never cease to disappoint. Learn to protect yourself at the right time."

In my soapbox

Day 21: Rant about something. Get up on your soapbox and tell us how you really feel. 


I'm not making this topic up by the way.
Gosh, she gave me a challenge that has a soapbox! How lovely!
HAHA

I feel like shit today (Saturday) - Yeah I'm writing from the future.
I feel sores every where. Especially my face. no pun intended. and then migraine came.

But that is not the point.
The point is why do I have to work so hard and in the end it goes unappreciated.
I have feelings too. Yeah I know I am a super sensitive person. (Will get to that soon)
But don't I deserve to be respected?
I waited for nothing!
Why I have to always be the time keeper! Everytime! Everywhere! For years!
I sacrificed part of my brain to keep track of stuff for years! but none of it is appreciated. 
None.
Not even now.
I waited and waited and waited.
Do you know how that feels like?
when all you get is just a sorry.
Call me a drama queen or whatever shit you can but
do you think it is right to treat me that way?
Why?
Why do I have to endure this?
I'd realized all these while, while I make sure I am in track of time, while I make sure I do not let people wait endlessly for me (I'd inform at least if I am late) someone is just taking my effort lightly.
To keep track of time requires effort. I know because I am always doing that.
Is it too much to ask from you? To not make me look like a fool, waiting?

Please? Must I beg?

I seemed like I need to beg even after I wasted my tears for nothing.

So I wish for an answer my dear readers.

Am I asking too much?

Let's travel back in time

It's list of links to your favorite posts in your archives challenge!

I dug and dug and dug through the archives and look what I have found!

Funny How Things Happen- Funny I still get questioned by curious cats out there. HAHA.

Melts my heart- My favourite line from a movie. Loved to share it with you all again =)

Wise words from a wise man- my favourite columnist. Wise words. Worth taking down. =)

Another beautiful line- I don't tend to write beautiful things in my blog but I found a few I thought it would be nice to share it again. No rants this time ::teehee::

Struggles Oh Struggles

Day 20! Get real. Share something you're struggling with right now.

My struggles would be me, myself and I.
Sometimes I feel like I am in a battle. My head is like a battle. No, seriously.
It's always my sanity against my rationality or my rationality going against my emotions and my temperamental-self.

This process goes on and on and on and on all day long. Everyday.

I hate being mad at things and people. I tried super duper hard not to. Sometimes it gets really annoying when I know I should not get mad but I couldn't control my feelings! How fucked up! See! now I'm cursing. That word was in my head so my autopilot fingers had to type it out.

Damnit.

I need a shrink.

If you would understand

Tell a story from your childhood. Dig deep and try to be descriptive about what you remember and how you felt.
Honestly I wished I could skip this topic. Dig deep? Oh my.

One fact. Two facts you should know.
I am petite. Like very small, petite. Short. Geddit?

and I am the youngest in the family.

So, when I was younger I would always be left out when it comes to tagging along the adults to say a day trip or short vacation. And the reason was (always) that I am too young and little. And they have their hands full. In the end, I'd be the one bidding goodbye at the gate, seeing my sisters off to their trips. Then all I left with were tears. (Mind you I am super sensitive. Beware.)

I can actually remember when I was as young as five. (Food for thought: I am not keeping grudge)

From those memories I guessed I forced myself to grow up and be independent. So I chose to go trips (school annual camping trips back in those days) on my own. (Although teachers did annoy me by asking if my parents want to pay them to babysit me) I learned to take it in stride and I began making my own decisions and not wanting to get People's hand fuller than they can handle. Despite being short and small I did what I like and what people think I couldn't.
I may be amusing for some but I can never compromise nor forgive when my feelings are being disregarded and toyed. So I chose to protect myself and love myself even more.
I did not regret, not even for one moment, for the choices I have made.

p.s. I wished I could spill something funny or happy but looking back into my childhood this is the first thing that came into my mind. Sorry for being too deep.

A Favourite Photo. Why

I love this topic, actually. As I browsed through the topics(deciding if I want to go ahead with the challenge) I had a mental picture of what it would be.

Here it is!

It probably isn't the nicest nor the best picture of myself (I guessed) but I liked it so much 'cause I could genuinely see through my eyes how fuzzy I was at that time. A lot of pictures are shots of me smiling widely while my heart isn't. How I feel was clearly captured here.

Day 16

It's Day 16! woo hoo! I am halfway through the challenge Pheeewww!

Something difficult about your "lot in life" and how you're working to overcome it.
I seriously have no idea what "lot in life" means. My Manglish is getting suckier day by day.
All I got from Google is It means one's way of life or worldly fate. HUH?!

But I don't know why most challenger used it to describe their family or husbands. So I guess Google is wrong? or those bloggers are dumb too. HAHA

Anyways I'll go for the Dumb option.

Difficulties about my "lot in life"

Hmm

Family doesn't understand me and I don't bother at the same time?
I hate LDR?

WOoookayyy...I'll keep my rants next.

A day in the life

Nap!



Ten Happy Pills.

(in no particular order)
1. Early morning jog. Before sun rise.
2. Getting lost in my favourite music.
3. Cooking my favourite meals or dessert.
4. Cuddles from my love. Rare cuddles.
5. Welcome home greetings from the three notorious dogs.
6. Road trips.
7. Homemade breakfast. I look forward to it the moment I wake up.
8. Random adventure.
9. Warm tea on a wet day.
10. Laughing uncontrollably with funny friends.

Day 13: Public Apology. I am sorry...

I broke the rule.

To be honest I did not blog for almost a week!

 (If you are following you might have already know HAH!)

I am making my amends by replacing those missing posts by today (It's actually 6.35pm on Saturday the 15th- so I am writing from the future :P)

Sorryyyy!

What do you miss?

You.

and it saddens me to know that we are (still)going to be apart for god-knows-how-long.

NINE

Sell yourself in ten words or less.

I'll sell you nine then. HAH

Temperamental.
Emotional.
Loyal.
Secretive.
Imaginative.
Sensible.
Discreet.
Independent.

There. Hope no one is running away from me. HAH!