death.
i do not know what to be afraid of, what i should fear of. but i know one thing. my biggest fear is the fear of losing my loved ones. by just having the slightest thought gives me goosebumps. i may or may not be afraid when death comes knocking on my door but having to lose someone, to me, would be far worse than me having to face death.
if i have to face death one day i couldn't wish more than to be able to celebrate every last bit of my life.

::From Mike::

Grams and daddy Paul brought me to Dr Yap for a one-to-one grooming session. I iz sketzzz......

BEFORE

AFTER

I have never been so naked in my life!

Look at my body hair!

Gone! all gone!

T_T

the saddest part,

Blossom didn't wanna play with me after I got this haircut!

She ignored me for a freaking week! I'm so bored =(

Junior hyeung and Mama Lady couldn't recognise me either

T_T

I wouldn't blame Mama cos she's old. Oopssss... but I still adore her ::teehee::

::emo-ing::

I shall rot on the couch. I shall not do anything until KaiMa comes home! Grams said she'll be coming home in June to see me! Yippie!

GASP!
the allenders are pregnant! hahah!

congrats to the lil couple!

beautiful acoustics

light mahogany

steel strings

rough, blistered fingers

deep voice yet soulful

the emotions

pure

simplistic

minimal expression

that's what captures one's heart

but ears first, that's for sure

awesome is a four letter word in this context

JASON MRAZ PLEASE COME TO M’SIA TO PROMOTE YOUR LOVE IS A FOUR LETTER WORD ALBUM! PLEASEE??? I WILL FORK OUT EVERY PENNY I HAVE TO ATTEND! I PROMISE! i meant every penny cos i’m going broke soon XP haha

::caption mode:: OF MICKY, PYC AND YC

*screams silently* *MSNpanda*

IKNOWRIGHT!

*cough*self-control*cough* HAHA

presenting you
THE PRINCE AND HIS ENTOURAGE


CAN YOU GUYS PLEASE STOP BEING SO CUTE!? HAHAHAHAHAHA *MSNPANDA*

:: drumrolls ::

p.s.  

isn’t he the cutest thing or what *MSNpanda*

i went for a kill. no?

Killed FOUR birds with ONE stone?!

HAHA

was home last weekend for RUSSELL PETERS

and

MOTHERS’ DAY celebration

and

my parents’ anniversary celebration

and

my.

Must say,

Russell Peters was awesome! *standing ovation* *clapsclaps*

our tickets! the moment we got the tickets in hand *hallelujah*! HAHAHA

look at the massive crowd!


after show shots!

family dinner was great. had a good time catching up with my family heeee
had a great time disturbing Mom! HAHA! she’s been ignoring me for the past couple of weeks. She has been very busy with her activities. so she said. LOL.

was super exhausted the next day. and with no interesting movies to watch.

of yoyo ice and stalking houses in Taman I-don’t-remember we ended up in Tanjung Harapan!

peace. quiet. calm. serene. for two!

this is what we need. HAHA.
*credits to google* HAHA


and how can I forget the FIRST theatre (i watched) of the semester! HAHA

Tans darling’s production!

Tans and Amy (her actress= awesome) and we got her flowers too!

excessive usage of lol. now it has lost all its meaning lol

as i sat in the common hall alone, i realised being up in the middle of the night wasnt that bad after all.
i felt calmer.
it was quiet. peaceful. chilly. dark. and something about the air. something. it stopped me from crying my eyeballs out. so that ought to be a good thing aye?

i am sorry if i have been selfish (i know i am.). even more so (especially) when i am upset.

i do not know what else there is to say except that if i could just save one's ear from listening to my rants, i'd be happy to do so.

i know you lot would eventually read all my unhappy full-of-profanities rude selfish posts i posted here and it would be the same as hearing me rant. but the least i could do is to give you lot an option to not read 'em.

i took down "the" post. it wasn't an apologetic move. i know the moment i wrote that post i would eventually take it down the first thing in the morning when i wake up (because the context of that post did not explain everything i felt. it was written because i want to rant lol). so if i am going to do so in the morning when the sun rises, doing it now doesn't make any difference. would it?

on another note, i am happy to say i'd finally unwrapped the one book i brought 2 months ago! wanting to do so for months. but didn't have the time for it. gonna bring it along this weekend cos i'm foreseeing 5 hours of agonizingly painful bus ride to ....... SELANGOR! i'm going to catch RP! LIVE!

p.s. i wished i could blog while sitting in the hall but dang, my phone just simply hates USMSecure(wifi). and shit i'd look horrible tomorrow =( rofl


p.s.s. i want a musashi. but i already have mike (cos my sister is finding her way to dump him to me ROFL *whispers* i know of her evil plans *runs*)

note-to-self

don’t you worry
you will be fine
every thing will fall into place
stop worrying and stop being afraid to make the right choice
you will need to face it as soon as you leave USM
focus on thesis
3 more days!
get it done!
sleep it off and you will be fine tomorrow!
bright, sun shiny day awaits!

If you have the time...