I'm so afraid that dream would come true. I hope that someone could tell me it's not. I wish it wouldn't. Please tell me it's not. Please don't let it come true.

need-no-naming post?

insomnia is probably nothing new to you guys.
but it is to me.
to me, a health freak, sleep is of the utmost importance. yes, i'm not ashamed to admit. i am a health freak. and a pusher for people to lead a healthy lifestyle and a pusher of many things. sorry, it's annoying and irritating and.. i don't know. Please fill in for me will ya?
lately waking up in the middle of the night, not once, many times is such a norm. so as tonight. um. midnight? it's 2 am. i think.
what i do when i can't sleep?
think
um
ponder on stuffs
kacau someone when he's home
kacau Blossom 'cos she snores all the time
think of what the future might be
think of times in penang
think of silly thing i did
think of silly things i cried upon
think of silly things i said and done
oh and read. thank god for my smartphone. am i still not smart enough for it. haha.
i can read surf browse all i want anytime (when i'm home or have free wifi access ::teehee::)
so, to sleep better
it seemed meditation works like magic! yet to try. will definitely try. soon. (need to find my meditation board!)
they say running works too. i run almost everyday. i still can't sleep!
hmm
spent whole night thinking again.
what can i say to make things right.
what can i say to not disappoint you or anyone.
what can i do?
i wish i could say everything i had in my heart and mind.
but words and me. we are not good buddies. either it come out wrong and end up a disaster. or nothing comes out.
either way heart still is heavy.
John Mayer say what you need to say?
p.s. i'm glad Lady found peace. no more sufferings.
i thought i should stop pushing around. i am wrong.

What can you do
When your good isn't good enough And all that you touch tumbles down 
Cause my best intentions
Keep making a mess of things
I just wanna fix it somehow 
But how many times will it take
Oh how many times will it take
For me to get it right
So I throw up my fist throw a punch in the air 
And accept the truth that sometimes life isn't fair
Yeah I'll send out a wish
yeah I'll send up a prayer
And finally someone will see how much I care

                            glee, get it right

the actual goodbye of all goodbyes

the day she came into our lives

we were in Singapore the week Dad brought her home. I remember feeling so excited during the train ride home! we were all super excited! our neighbour, Ong(he loves dog- too bad his wife hated

em!), and Uncle Bert purposely (dad's childhood friend) came to visit haha!

 

we had several canaries, a few hamsters, a squirrel haha! but nothing beats her!

 

the best memory

my sisters and I carpooled, from home to school then to nanny's place, since kindergarten. So, we gotta wake up early and catch those rides before dawn. And Lady would always be awake to accompany us til our carpool Aunty arrive to pick us.

When I used to go school alone in the morning, I always talk to her cos she's like my buddy and sister.

 

sadly

because we were all still young, schooling and all. spending most of our time in nanny's place. Mom and Dad had to work. She spent her childhood alone at home. hmmm....

 

on the bright side

she had a boyfriend! haha Mr Brownie. and 10 kids! (too bad, 8 died. 2 survived) oh wait, and a niece(Blossom) and nephew(Mike)! haha!

 

and she lived till 16! Bravo, mama! I love calling her marmalade. heh. cos she looks a bit orangy =P

 

 

p.s. Goodbye my loyal sister/buddy. We love, love you so very much. Thank you for making my childhood a memorable one.

 

 

 



why no relationship posts and statuses on FB

Here's why...



Reason No. 5!

I am not secretive.
I just know what to put out for public viewing and what not.

I'm just using my Whatsapp and telco services to the fullest. I paid for it, didnt I!?

A dreamer?

I've read and heard so much this week on living the dream, John Lennon's you may say I'm a dreamer but I'm not the only one, the promise.....
What if,
What if,
You received something, in the end it was taken away from you. Worst, it was all made up or a lie, a gimic. Sorry I'm a cynic.
Everything sounds so nice when people want you to believe.
When you do, as time passes, you'll notice the cracks in the foundation you once believed in.
Pessimist much? Oh hell yeah!

Anyways, Michelle rocked the house!

he is one hell of a lucky guy to be married to her

10 best childhood memories

1) waking before dawn to watch land before time, and imitating the characters' voices, with my sisters.

2) 1-month holiday in Aussie!

3) first official piano lesson.

4) shopping for my very first and last tamaguchi.

5) my very own birthday parties. Because I'll have a new dress to wear every birthday as pressie. Haha!

6) owned our first dog. lady!

7) annual trip to port Dickson with mom's family.

8) school camping trips.

9) walking to school(primary) with friends every Saturday morning to play badminton.

10) Becoming a bridesmaid. 3 times! Haha.