need-no-naming post?

insomnia is probably nothing new to you guys.
but it is to me.
to me, a health freak, sleep is of the utmost importance. yes, i'm not ashamed to admit. i am a health freak. and a pusher for people to lead a healthy lifestyle and a pusher of many things. sorry, it's annoying and irritating and.. i don't know. Please fill in for me will ya?
lately waking up in the middle of the night, not once, many times is such a norm. so as tonight. um. midnight? it's 2 am. i think.
what i do when i can't sleep?
think
um
ponder on stuffs
kacau someone when he's home
kacau Blossom 'cos she snores all the time
think of what the future might be
think of times in penang
think of silly thing i did
think of silly things i cried upon
think of silly things i said and done
oh and read. thank god for my smartphone. am i still not smart enough for it. haha.
i can read surf browse all i want anytime (when i'm home or have free wifi access ::teehee::)
so, to sleep better
it seemed meditation works like magic! yet to try. will definitely try. soon. (need to find my meditation board!)
they say running works too. i run almost everyday. i still can't sleep!
hmm
spent whole night thinking again.
what can i say to make things right.
what can i say to not disappoint you or anyone.
what can i do?
i wish i could say everything i had in my heart and mind.
but words and me. we are not good buddies. either it come out wrong and end up a disaster. or nothing comes out.
either way heart still is heavy.
John Mayer say what you need to say?
p.s. i'm glad Lady found peace. no more sufferings.
i thought i should stop pushing around. i am wrong.