the story of my first crush

I was fifteen when I first heard his captivating voice on TV. I had no freaking idea what song that was and who he was, so I watched attentively when the closing credits appear to find out who the singer of that beautiful song. And the rest is history.... yeah, he was my first crush. and still is.

If you have read my 10 resolutions before I turn 30, you must know catching him live once again is one of my resolution. AND THAT I AM.
I literally want to scream at the top of my lungs saying "I AM GOING TO SEE HIM, AGAINNNNNNNN!"
Well, I am going to contain my happiness for now and be a little bit more civilized (I can't promise I would be able to on Tuesday night though! heh).

So, here's him! - the amazing Canadian Crooner. I love Canada, now! LOL

Some questions should just left unanswered, perhaps

For some time, I allowed myself to cry. Or probably because I could not hold back my tears.
Or probably because I wanted to, and I have a reason to do so.
I know, I am being the typical me. If I don't say, I don't think, I'd be okay. I just need to practice that smile every day. I just need to say I am okay. I am okay. I will be okay. I will not lose that smile. I will not lose that charm. I will not fear the future. I will not fear the person I am. I will not give up everything I believe in.

I will never give up on what I believe in.

But, for now, just for now...

I wish to not be reminded. I wish for that serenity. I wish for a shooting star, if only there is such a thing.

I will wake up tomorrow, with that smile when I put on my make up. and it will be just another day. Steve and Shaz will probably make me laugh, discuss footie with Aziz and Talib, well, maybe a little bit on politics too, why not eh?

........................................................

I still believe...

# I will have beauty if only I believe in one.
# Meritocracy.
# Nothing in this world is free. We have to fight for everything. But in an honest way.
# Positivity. (though it is often over-stated)
# There is always light at the end of the tunnel.

Winning My First Radio Contest

Every weekday morning I will spend one hour in my car either daydreaming about future vacations, daydreaming about working abroad, daydreaming about a handsome prince on a white horse (pun intended if you must know) or dread about my never-ending projects or laugh at silly jokes on the radio and what not!

This morning.. a change of luck! Steve finally picked up my call! - after trying tirelessly for two weeks!
And I am about to receive these goodies! yeahhhh...

Before Steve even had the time to start the timer I answered it! Easy Peasyyy!

when alternative is the mainstream today

I am alone because I have moved on. and it feels I am the only one. It was a part of my lifestyle once, but I grew past it. It feels awkward to look back at things I used to do or say, but that was the younger me. I can't actually blame myself for it. I have to let that go because I need to carry on my life in the next phase. I have wasted 3 years on it, so no more. I don't think I owe anyone any part of my life. If you want to be a part of my life, to be remembered, be in my real life because I do not have a virtual world.
That said, I am not weird. I am just living my life. and having principles and the courage to carry out my convictions.
So don't be a coward and stick to your principles.

7 Things

I hate about ushering the New Year

One

I get no new year's kiss

TWO

when it is time to reflect on resolutions made in the beginning of the year you tend to regret on those resolutions you did not achieve. That feeling sucks.

3

I am older by another year.

FOUR

as I get older, more responsibilities. new year, new responsibilities whether you like it or not.

5ive

new year does not feel new at all

Six

I need to work on new year's eve

7even

bad traffic.

For Us(women) and boys-becoming-men

Stumbled upon this beautiful article.

 

Cheers to Dr. Kelly(a father) who wrote it. 

 

 

The tale of the circle

An observer of that little circle, a Jasmine tree is all required to stay away, to stay grounded. But no man is without greed. That observer no less.
How do you feel? A question that will never surface. Ever.

26 days till 2013

Reflection Time!

 

Sort of like a timeline. What I did etc etc.

 

So,

 

This is my life in 2012!

 

January (Didn't end 2011 nor begin 2012 with a boom)

• I declared 2011 as one the worst year in my life. Horrible workload. Terrible hours in the lab. Was hospitalized. and what not!
• Embraced the New Year with a "Convex" mug in my hand! Walking around campus ground with fellow classmates till midnight after having a super filling "room"-made  steamboat dinner organised by them ::teehee::

February~love is in the air~

 

spent Valentine's with a boy.

striked out the resolution I made with Beanie.

dated Mr CP

 

 

HAHA

 

 

move on... to

 

March!

 

April

meet the parents

lots of interrogation (I was home for a week, only heh)

 

May

• wrapped up my final year project. finished thesis Hurrah!
• studied for my final Final Examination

JUNE

 

final Final Exam took place

Prepared for thesis presentation

 

farewell party BBP style

missed you guys!

 

 

 

July(busy July)

 

Nailed presentation

So Long, Farewell USM

 

Here comes post- grad trip no. ONE!

 

TWO

 

 

(this was in August)

 

 

AUGUST

 

started working.

 

happy Eid at Hani's Teratak Murni =)

 

September

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.

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November

.

.

trip to Bukit Cahaya. caught in the rain. funniest moment. LOVED IT!

 

December,

 

will you surprise me?

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

I am thankful

December is here.

 

I was. Yes, I was going to say "Gosh, the year just flew by!"

 

blabber about it.

 

but

 

I guess I should (for once, at least) stop blabbering/ranting/rambling about my life Haha!

 

Anyways, another favourite article from Papa Soo. Read it! and Don't forever be busy. Life's too short!

 



 

 

 



Hello!

Bonjour mon amis!

Haven't been blogging(ranting?) for a while. Have been  reading a lot lately. *coughs* not serious materials though. HAHA.

Been diligently reading racy books for the past few days (er, a week?) Fifty shades trilogy by E.L. James. HAHA.

Thank you Mr Wong for your very interesting column. Well I'm kind of a curious on the kind of book that had left this papa in cold sweat. His daughter proudly announced that she purchased Fifty Shades of Grey(first book) and that made him er nervous

So I had to know how racy/erotic this book can be!

Sometimes a parent can be a little too protective(?) I guess.

I've got to see it for myself! HAHA!

In short. Umm. It is erotic. Very.

Lame plot. Very Cinderella. In an erotic way. HAHA.

Rich guy fall for a not-so-rich-girl-next-door.

Rich guy has a dark sexual secret. Girl-next-door kinda changed him.

Blah blah blah.

Then they lived happily ever after.

So in my opinion, it is a racy book. I'd only recommend this to MATURE readers ONLY. Take it as a fun reading. No harm done.

But it's definitely not for kiddies. Go read Harry Potter or something! No pun intended.

Now I'm going to try reading all the books I bought last year. 10 of them. Gosh, why the hell I bought this many! HAHA!

why no relationship posts and statuses on FB

Here's why...



Reason No. 5!

I am not secretive.
I just know what to put out for public viewing and what not.

I'm just using my Whatsapp and telco services to the fullest. I paid for it, didnt I!?

10 best childhood memories

1) waking before dawn to watch land before time, and imitating the characters' voices, with my sisters.

2) 1-month holiday in Aussie!

3) first official piano lesson.

4) shopping for my very first and last tamaguchi.

5) my very own birthday parties. Because I'll have a new dress to wear every birthday as pressie. Haha!

6) owned our first dog. lady!

7) annual trip to port Dickson with mom's family.

8) school camping trips.

9) walking to school(primary) with friends every Saturday morning to play badminton.

10) Becoming a bridesmaid. 3 times! Haha.

Tips to be famous
Be absurd
Be ugly
Be scandalous
Be rude
Be disgusting
Be shameless
Be offensive (in your words/gestures)
Be ridiculous
It's proven. Trust me. Go google. People who are newsworthy did that. And they are famous now!
But then again, it will not last a lifetime.

confession

I miss Penang.

I really do.

Sigh

I missed out on so many good shows and art exhibitions! damnit!

and all those memories
sigh

=(

why i am not a girly girl: reason 2

because I love

THIS

THIS

and THIS

i'm a sampah masyarakat

my dream home (as of 2012)

Ken Rimba (click here!)

my dream car

Jeep Wrangler Sahara

::teehee::



why i am not a girly girl: reason 1

i don't know how to tie a plait!

yes

honest to god

i can't tie one for myself

my hands are kinda cacat

i always seek help if i want to wear a plait

although I realllyyyy LURVE plaits and braids

HAHA

I'd really love to wear one of these hairstyles next year! cos i think it suits my lovely dress ::wink::

aren't they simple

cute

sophisticated

edgy

sweet

and gorgeous!?

10 things i’d say to my sixteen-year-old-self

1- Follow your instincts because they are darn right.

2- despite getting bullied and bossed around by her, your big sis loves you very much(she’ll learn to appreciate your presence especially when you’re away *winks*)

3- need not bug dad to bring you to Penang. You will be travelling up and about north of Malaysia. *hint* you’ll end up studying there lol

4- it’s okay to like chemistry because you need it in life. because chemistry IS life. despite having people around telling you otherwise.

5- it’s okay to skip school =P

6- it’s okay to ignore the boys.(that is not being cocky. trust me.) you’ll meet a keeper soon lol.


7- listen to mom and dad but do what you think is right.

8- people will still stare. ignore them. walk tall. sit straight. and glare.

9- you will still be categorise as cute, even when you are in your 20s. sigh. just live with it. lol.

10- you are still daddy’s little gal. i think you can live with it. haha.

my new found love...

tweeter

no LIKE buttons. (YES!)

no ODD friends whom I can't UNFRIEND.

i CAN post gazillion times a day and WHO CARES!







p.s. missing you already