excessive usage of lol. now it has lost all its meaning lol

as i sat in the common hall alone, i realised being up in the middle of the night wasnt that bad after all.
i felt calmer.
it was quiet. peaceful. chilly. dark. and something about the air. something. it stopped me from crying my eyeballs out. so that ought to be a good thing aye?

i am sorry if i have been selfish (i know i am.). even more so (especially) when i am upset.

i do not know what else there is to say except that if i could just save one's ear from listening to my rants, i'd be happy to do so.

i know you lot would eventually read all my unhappy full-of-profanities rude selfish posts i posted here and it would be the same as hearing me rant. but the least i could do is to give you lot an option to not read 'em.

i took down "the" post. it wasn't an apologetic move. i know the moment i wrote that post i would eventually take it down the first thing in the morning when i wake up (because the context of that post did not explain everything i felt. it was written because i want to rant lol). so if i am going to do so in the morning when the sun rises, doing it now doesn't make any difference. would it?

on another note, i am happy to say i'd finally unwrapped the one book i brought 2 months ago! wanting to do so for months. but didn't have the time for it. gonna bring it along this weekend cos i'm foreseeing 5 hours of agonizingly painful bus ride to ....... SELANGOR! i'm going to catch RP! LIVE!

p.s. i wished i could blog while sitting in the hall but dang, my phone just simply hates USMSecure(wifi). and shit i'd look horrible tomorrow =( rofl


p.s.s. i want a musashi. but i already have mike (cos my sister is finding her way to dump him to me ROFL *whispers* i know of her evil plans *runs*)