countdown to freedom

STPM is getting nearer... i can even smell it..
i can smell freedom too... which is the only thing i'm looking forward rite now..
last time it used to be months away... now... less than a week!
fu yoh... time passed so quickly...

i don't know why... but the mood to study just disappeared... shouldn't i be studying real hard especially at this time...???
i just became so reluctant to touch any books nowadays..
yet i'm afraid to screw up my cert..my life...
haihzz... i dunno what i want...
bin wrote a very sentimental blog.. i was kinda moved by it... it reminded me of the days, happy and sad days we had gone through together...~emo~
anyways... i hope we(all the fellow bio gang) could still meet after this... =)

healthkicker...no no no....

i admit i'm very health conscious.. what to be ashamed of???? but i'm not that type who counts her calories intakes per meal each day, everyday!
no no no (in the berubinlah kinda slang...ask her if you wanna know..hehe)
i don't COUNT my calory intake.. i eat what i assumed it to be healthy..
i crave on desserts and spicy food... so why people keep insisting i'm a health freak... and only eats apples... i can't nourish my body with just apples okayy?? that's not even a healthy eating habit...
anorexic counts her calories... and i'm not in that circle.. not even near/ close to that
i'm not an anorexic!!!!
hear that???!!! got it???
so please please please don't "tease" me with apples..... pleassssssseeeeee
i thought going to ram's place would be fun since i begged so hard to get out...
and then just as i expected... yong shien and most of them started with that esther and apple thing.... haihzzz....
what can i do??? have to live with it...

anyways, yesterday was kinda fun... ram's a good chef... any single indian gals out there???hehe
he's a good guy... really.....XD

it's gettting late... chao~

human trafficking

i recommend you guys to watch this movie "human trafficking" on hallmark channel.. if you don't have astro it's okay...i guess you can find ways to get that movie online...
i hope when you watch it you'd spread bout this movie..
to me, this movie is fantastic and real...
i cant find any reason to hate this movie or to criticise it. how the casts potray these characters didn't bothers me at all... what really bothers me is the truth..
we live in a world of denial and ignorance.. yes you can deny this fact ...let me ask you this.. what is human trafficking???
if i tell you there's over 800000 people, boys and girls of all ages being smuggled across international borders every year..do you believe???
people say seeing is believing. i tell you what i saw..
few years back, i saw with my own eyes and heard with my own ears, i witness a young innocent foreign lady being captured by police.
from her appearance and dressing, i knew fr the start she's a sex slave.. sex slave may have sound rude and improper..but why ppl say no to this word "sex slave" but not to "fuck"???
she was caught by my sister hiding under the drain just less than a metre from my house!
i swear this is true. she even asked my sis not to say anything. but it's just too late.. by the time we found her, her "owner" was here. her ran to my neighbour two doors away to hide because at that time the house was unoccupied and construction was on. so she tried seeking help from those foreign labours.. but they couldn't help her too..
i watched her being brought away by her "owner" and few police escorts.
at that time my sis immediately called out my mom. and we told her what had happened.. i really wanna help her. though i'm still young but i know what they would force her to do..
that man i still saw him around my neighbourhood especially in kopitiams.. till the day i die i shall never forget his disgusting face... you must be thinking why i hate this person so much although he did nothing to me.. but whenever i start thinking bout his dirty occupation i'll start cursing him silently..
i asked my sis before whether she still remembers him..she cant but i can...
i never told anyone this story before but i can't stay quiet anymore.
why do humans torture each other??
why humans betray each other for money??
this syndicate cost millions millions of dollars ...but is it worth the price???
is it worth to forget humanity and human sense for money??
is it worth to torture and treat someone that way to please your sexual needs???
is it worth to lose respect and dignity for a piece of rectangular printed paper??
no matter it's a boy or a girl, rich or poor, young or old, pretty or ugly, cute or hunky, they deserve to be respected..... we are all human no matter what skin colour we wear...
respect that!
sex slavery will keep on going for decades as long as there's "buyer" there's "product". as long as there's ignorance human rights will be abused.....
think bout it..
if one day, people violated your rights what would you do???
just because some of these children are poor and uneducated, doesn't mean their rights can be taken awayfrom them...
you don't need to be an economist or a genius to figure this out right???
let those poor children live a normal life. think them as your children, your sons or daughters or sisters and brothers...
now, watch it and spread it..
please.

near adulthood??...i don't think so

my parents(especially my mom!) love saying this to me and my sisters..
" ...you know, when we were young, we never get the opportunity to further our studies...ha...not like you youngsters today, we have to sent u to higher institutions and must be your choice..."
OMG!!!!::rolled eyes::
tht's my reaction...every single time she start this conversation of which who's luckier than who...
yes, i admit we grew up in a more civilised and modern and comfortable surroundings... however, still there's unfortunate people in this era of globalisation...
on the other hand, i still feel very envious with the lifestyle young children live in...when i said young children it means toddlers and primary kids...highschool kids too...
fyi, i'm no longer in that category...just so you know!hah!
i'm officially 19...a young lady..

i'm currently a tutor of a 7 year old boy. i took this job reluctantly cuz i know i'm not a good tutor ...i'm kinda impatient especially towards kids...don't get me wrong..it's not like i dislike them...i love kids!
i love playing and babysitting them...btw, i babysit toddlers when i was young too...i'm experienced..hehheh ;-P
you see, i've been taken care by a nanny since i was a baby till i'm in secondary...after my mom retired, i no longer go there...but still i'm very very close to her family....they are like my second familiy...seriously, i'm closer to them than to my cousins and aunts and uncles...
so whenever my nanny is busy coooking, my sisters and i would take turn babysitting her grandsons...anyway, we do it because we adore them...
tutoring this kid really takes a lot of energy...trust me, if my hair turns grey probably it's because of this lil fellow...
i will "tor hui"(vomit blood...direct translation) every saturday because of him... he's really getting on my nerves... in the beginning he wasn't exactly this stubborn...but recently he's being more more rebellious..he is the best in not paying attention in class, telling lies, day-dreaming, etc....
i feel like quiting every single week...i feel so frustated and i'm a failure... i can't believe that i can't handle this kid when i'm practically good in handling my studies...

i'm just trying to let off my anger and frustration in a better way...i don't curse whenever i'm angry at something or someone...
"curse all you want...in the end you are the one who's going to face god.." says jane...
i love this phrase...so typical jane jane...
talking bout her...she left m'sia last wednesday...missing her already...::sobsob:: =(
have to wait another year to see her again....haihzzz