how can a person be so certain about something and then the next thing something happens all the dreams just crumbled into pieces? is this what people call indecisive because i always thought i am pretty determined of the path i'm choosing. when dad said next time when you work he'll drag you around in a split second all i saw was 2 paths and clearly i can only choose one. the reason why i am reluctant to talk is because i knew i had to come to a decision. just one word can change my whole life. what if i still want what i said. this is even more scarier than being in a relationship. the amount of people involved. the amount of people i am going to disappoint. not forgetting myself. holy crap i hate making this decision. i feel so stupid to ever trust my instincts. what am i holding on to now? i don't know if i can become just a "still in the process of consideration" i believe i am more than that. sigh. whatever.

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it is so difficult to own it yet i put so much of effort to get it although i knew i won't have it and i might end up abandoning the chance of owning something within my means sigh complicated much?