near adulthood??...i don't think so

my parents(especially my mom!) love saying this to me and my sisters..
" ...you know, when we were young, we never get the opportunity to further our studies...ha...not like you youngsters today, we have to sent u to higher institutions and must be your choice..."
OMG!!!!::rolled eyes::
tht's my reaction...every single time she start this conversation of which who's luckier than who...
yes, i admit we grew up in a more civilised and modern and comfortable surroundings... however, still there's unfortunate people in this era of globalisation...
on the other hand, i still feel very envious with the lifestyle young children live in...when i said young children it means toddlers and primary kids...highschool kids too...
fyi, i'm no longer in that category...just so you know!hah!
i'm officially 19...a young lady..

i'm currently a tutor of a 7 year old boy. i took this job reluctantly cuz i know i'm not a good tutor ...i'm kinda impatient especially towards kids...don't get me wrong..it's not like i dislike them...i love kids!
i love playing and babysitting them...btw, i babysit toddlers when i was young too...i'm experienced..hehheh ;-P
you see, i've been taken care by a nanny since i was a baby till i'm in secondary...after my mom retired, i no longer go there...but still i'm very very close to her family....they are like my second familiy...seriously, i'm closer to them than to my cousins and aunts and uncles...
so whenever my nanny is busy coooking, my sisters and i would take turn babysitting her grandsons...anyway, we do it because we adore them...
tutoring this kid really takes a lot of energy...trust me, if my hair turns grey probably it's because of this lil fellow...
i will "tor hui"(vomit blood...direct translation) every saturday because of him... he's really getting on my nerves... in the beginning he wasn't exactly this stubborn...but recently he's being more more rebellious..he is the best in not paying attention in class, telling lies, day-dreaming, etc....
i feel like quiting every single week...i feel so frustated and i'm a failure... i can't believe that i can't handle this kid when i'm practically good in handling my studies...

i'm just trying to let off my anger and frustration in a better way...i don't curse whenever i'm angry at something or someone...
"curse all you want...in the end you are the one who's going to face god.." says jane...
i love this phrase...so typical jane jane...
talking bout her...she left m'sia last wednesday...missing her already...::sobsob:: =(
have to wait another year to see her again....haihzzz

~confusing~amused~

i'm wondering whether or not to stop P.Am tuition...kinda lazy to attend class every friday....hehe=p....
in the other hand, i'm amused by magic...it doesn't exist...yes i know...apparently those "magicians" you call are playing games with our minds...that's y illusionist is more suitable to describe this profession...crap...dunno what i'm crapping here.....have a nice weekend everybody....
~listening to the prayer by celine dion and josh groban~

pictureless..

so far i realised my blogs are pictureless...good good...let's keep it that way...
i'm still thinking of whether or not to go to Rally...hmm...it is starting soon...6 pm i think..
i actually agreed to go and i've even replied Mami-muth's rsvp in facebook long time ago...i know i'm bad to ffk her...haaa...indilemma...
not that i don't wanna go...the thinking of driving to and fro + the jam +"harga" petrol "naik"(just wanna mengada-ada a bit)kinda make me change my mind...and i'm so lethargic today...woke up at 6am just to get in school on time for Explorace...
i predicted this race would end early...but not as early as 9.30am!...fyi, we started this race 8++am..i guess it took about 45 mins for nicole+junjun+tzing' team to finish it...
it was hilarious to see ppl's faces covered in flour..and the best part was the "Best Actor/Actress" task...they are suppose to guess and act out in any way possible when we read out the characteristics of an animal...++they have to impress binbin with their acting skills...hmmm...lol...
daniesh did something smart to put binbin incharge of this checkpoint....rofl...
lazy to elaborate further...after Explorace, we played badminton and basketball b4 going home...my ball went into the loop at the 1st attempt!haha....happyhappy=p
as i'm already so tired and exhausted, i had to drive home and got stuck in the heavy traffic for almost 30 mins...by the time i reached home, it was already pass 12 noon.have to sing "you and me" and "what hurts the most" in the car to keep me awake(the radio in my mom's car is not working)..thank god plans to meet up with jane was cancelled yesterday..or else, i have to ffk them...and i'm really really sorry lisa ...i kinda forgot to inform u the 1st place itself...don't be mad k??..sorry=(...lately i realised i have memory problems...so sorry...

it's a wacky,wacky-world of azams...

so many things to do arr...yet i can't control myself from blogging...once i switch on my comp i'll start checking emails from uncle chee...as soon as i finished replying his emails, my gatal fingers will 'accidentally' click the fav column on the left.then all the blog add will appear. and i'll run tru each and every blogs.... now i'm suppose to complete my work. creating a few articles for KPA and Librarian Board to be published in the yearbook....haihzz...so little time...
how i wish i was hitler chan....can njoy 36 hours a day...=p

btw, sooks and mr surinder really made my day today in school.=)
from now onwards, sooks is also known as "sot" yee...she named herself that...not me..LOL
she went nutso today in school..dunno what's the reason...she just went crazy...naming herself "sot" yee...fyi, "sot" in canto means psycho... zabi overheard our conversation and she tot sooks said "short" yee...ROFL... that made everyone go hyper...
i advise you to think twice b4 entering our class....we are totally crazy and abnormal considering our status as Form 6 students....
as you all know, F6 students are usually studious...just like u6cergas...but not us...we are way pass that category...famous for our kaki ponteng antics...LOL...azams gonna kill me!=p

mr surinder on the other hand...hah...don't have to elaborate much...he's funny as usual...bullied by us..we always "mogok" and reluctant to do the work he gave...and he's smart too...learnt a few antics of ours after teaching us for so long....LOL....
one thing i'll nvr forget bout him and will always remind me of him is his sweaty, exhausted look as he walks into our classroom...*winks*