Woot!! bin bin to the rescue!
having many options in life(especially if it's about "it") aren't always easy and less harmful to our mind. i certainly don't think i'm comfortable with it. i'd rather have only one of "it" then many of "it". having many options aren't my thing in the 1st place. it just chose me for no reason. you can't judge me for taking it for granted because you aren't in my shoes. it's not like i didn't try. i tried. but get no respond. don't tell me i didn't try hard enough. it's not easy for me to do tat in the 1st place. i took the initiative but it wasn't enough to force that "donkey" to move!and i don't wanna spoil everything just because of this. i've been through enough of such awkwardness. and i don't like discussing "it" in front of people when it turns bad and even if it works, i still didn't like talking about it. everytime i think about "it", i'll feel so numb. like nothing else matters. but how am i suppose to forget "it". every single occurance brings my mind back to "it". i tried, that's all i can say.
