what use or good will come if I speak and all that comes after that is only silence. and all I am reduced to is tears. hence I chose Silence as well. at least I do not have to wait for an answer.
what can I hold on to if I hear plans but to be stood up time after time?
what hurts the most is when you're stood up and forgotten and still have to pretend everything is ok.
what if I am not ok.
it is just not acceptable.
because I have to be happy, sweet, jolly, pretty, always smiling, always strong...
what if I am just not