being in the jungle for 3 days can actually keep me from facing the reality. i love that! running away from my problems.
however, i'm back in dilemma when mims did that tarot reading.... i feel eager to try out after watchin ppl doin it. but it wasn't that true...(i meant by the predictions)
i can't stop thinking whether to or not to accept him... and my emotions are running pretty low at that moment due to exhaustion...
i didn't want my history to repeat again. disappointing someone else is the last thing i wanna do..
the things he did or say have no effect on me....i don't feel blushed nor happy....not like last time. i know i shouldn't compare...i'm not comparing...i just want that kind of feeling back... but it just won't happen...
why can't someone i like fall for me??....haihzz....anyway, i'm not in the mood for love now.... maybe later.
p.s. why can't i write emo stuff in my blog??....again i said...it's my blog!...back off ppl...don't read if you think it's too emo....plss...
Thursday, May 29, 2008
Friday, May 23, 2008
David vs David
American Idol season 7 was fantastic as i predicted. haha....
the performance was fab and all the 11 finalists were amazing(i think...??)..you??.....
i know there should be 12 of them but the one and only slacker/dreadlocker doesn't deserve this compliments.
he didn't change his attitude after all. still the same. giving us dull and boring performance every single time. thank god americans weren't that blind. tho , they are blind to eliminate michael johns and put him through.
anyway, i'm super duper happy that 'big' David won this fight. he truly deserve it.
palapapapa...i'm....lovin it! =P
however i missed archuletta and one republic's performance on apologies....*sobsob*
wonder when is the repeat......
the performance was fab and all the 11 finalists were amazing(i think...??)..you??.....
i know there should be 12 of them but the one and only slacker/dreadlocker doesn't deserve this compliments.
he didn't change his attitude after all. still the same. giving us dull and boring performance every single time. thank god americans weren't that blind. tho , they are blind to eliminate michael johns and put him through.
anyway, i'm super duper happy that 'big' David won this fight. he truly deserve it.
palapapapa...i'm....lovin it! =P
however i missed archuletta and one republic's performance on apologies....*sobsob*
wonder when is the repeat......
Friday, May 2, 2008
yesteryears
i was chatting with my best pal from high school minutes ago. she's the only person who i can talk to after a stressful day.now, i find it difficult to talk to others in school. maybe i rely too much on her when we were in school. the problems i face in school made me think of her even more. we used to chat and joke with each other everytime. and during exams, we are the most relaxed ppl in the entire class...hehe=)....you can see other ppl bz revising unlike both of us.we' d serenade our friends with our fav song to help them release their stress...missed those moments...that was then....now, i barely sing or lol in class like no one's business. i'm no longer that bubbly gal i used to be.
i always think i'll burden others if i tell them my problems. even if i told them, it will not help solve my problems....the only thing i can do is learn to accept problems and solve them myself. be independent.
i went into form 6 in hopes to achieve my dreams without having mommy and daddy forking out a huge sum for my tertiary edu. it may sound cheesy...but it's true...
in reality, rich kids get the opportunity to further their studies in college and overseas. but i'm was not raised with a silver spoon in my mouth. my parents are neither rich nor poor nor highly educated. they can't afford to spend thousands of dollars. and it will be so selfish of me to ask them to spend all of their savings for me cuz they are not young...they need money for their retirement....
i'm neither a straight-A student...nor a always-fail student. i'm an average student..not the brainy type.
but i worked as hard as others...i'm just not good enuf to get scholarships cuz....they only want straight As student. i believe if your mommy and daddy can afford to send you to private college...why want scholarship somemore. our society thinks that if you are sponsored you are smart...and can jaga maruah mommy and daddy too especially parents who love to compare and tunjuk tunjuk infront of others. there's no such parents who doesn't like to have an all-rounder to be their kid.
i accept my fate. furthermore i'm not giving up cuz i know this is a part of the obstacles i must face in life...what i experienced has changed the way i see the world completely. i learnt that nothing is free. i have to work for it.
nothing in this world can stop me from achieving my dreams. fingers crossed.....
i always think i'll burden others if i tell them my problems. even if i told them, it will not help solve my problems....the only thing i can do is learn to accept problems and solve them myself. be independent.
i went into form 6 in hopes to achieve my dreams without having mommy and daddy forking out a huge sum for my tertiary edu. it may sound cheesy...but it's true...
in reality, rich kids get the opportunity to further their studies in college and overseas. but i'm was not raised with a silver spoon in my mouth. my parents are neither rich nor poor nor highly educated. they can't afford to spend thousands of dollars. and it will be so selfish of me to ask them to spend all of their savings for me cuz they are not young...they need money for their retirement....
i'm neither a straight-A student...nor a always-fail student. i'm an average student..not the brainy type.
but i worked as hard as others...i'm just not good enuf to get scholarships cuz....they only want straight As student. i believe if your mommy and daddy can afford to send you to private college...why want scholarship somemore. our society thinks that if you are sponsored you are smart...and can jaga maruah mommy and daddy too especially parents who love to compare and tunjuk tunjuk infront of others. there's no such parents who doesn't like to have an all-rounder to be their kid.
i accept my fate. furthermore i'm not giving up cuz i know this is a part of the obstacles i must face in life...what i experienced has changed the way i see the world completely. i learnt that nothing is free. i have to work for it.
nothing in this world can stop me from achieving my dreams. fingers crossed.....
Thursday, May 1, 2008
S.E.E.D
someone commented on my blog and asked me the meaning of S.E.E.D.
it is actually seed. i wanted it to be special so i placed dots in between them....haha....
i know it's kinda weird but it is what it is...
a friend of my gave me a growing plant for my birthday last year. it contained 4 chinese character carved on the leaf. the characters was actually somewhere in the seed and when it grew then only you can see it. it was a very special gift although i know i can get it in any market.
i was once a 'seed' growing in my mom's womb. the genes i inherit from both of my parents made me what i am today. now, i'm a young women eager to explore the world and still growing(although not physically but mentally)....=)
it is actually seed. i wanted it to be special so i placed dots in between them....haha....
i know it's kinda weird but it is what it is...
a friend of my gave me a growing plant for my birthday last year. it contained 4 chinese character carved on the leaf. the characters was actually somewhere in the seed and when it grew then only you can see it. it was a very special gift although i know i can get it in any market.
i was once a 'seed' growing in my mom's womb. the genes i inherit from both of my parents made me what i am today. now, i'm a young women eager to explore the world and still growing(although not physically but mentally)....=)
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