doo-bai-er-ty

I'm leaving for Penang soon- soon, as in 24 days. I just got accepted by USM.
Right now in my mind I should feel as happy as a clam, contented, satisfied, excited, and absolutely delighted and grateful and.. but that's not what I had in mind. at least I thought I would. I thought I would immediately post up in my blog or update everyone in Facebook. But I did not do so. or probably I thought it was not necessary at all. not that I didn't want to share this good news with every one. but there's just something that has been bothering me as soon as I got this news. Before I can share this piece of news with every one, I first need to get this weird feeling out of me. I thanked every one who sincerely congratulate me. It was very kind of you guys. I thank you.
as i am about to leave home for real made me even more melancholy. It is absolutely the worse depressing moment I can think of. I never thought I would feel this way. I thought I am tough and independent. so much so, I am not what I think I am now. One way stop all these nonsense, the one way I could think of is by burying myself with music and books and dramas.. My life is full of dramas but I still need them to entertain me. at least get my head out from all of these for good.
I will certainly miss
~ Mike's warm embrace everytime I get home.
~ my Kawai
~ playing "KNOCK, KNOCK.." on Junior's big head ::ROFL::
~ playing and making fun of Lady and petting her before going out and when I return
~ scolding Junior for barking like a "bapok"
~ watching my dad serenades Mike with the guitar
~ my bed
~ mom's cooking
~ cooking and baking for family
~ hanging out with my buddies
~ the chance to meet Jane cos she comes back only once a year.
~ hugging and kissing Mike
~ TV and Astro
~ arguing with my mom over Astro's remote control
~ manja-ing with my mom and dad
~ disturbing dad
~ Bak Kut Teh! hahahaha....