longing for the past

If I could make time stop I’d want it to stop in the year 2006, then I will be 17 once again. 17, jolly, happy and bubbly, as always. Whenever I’m down or having a bad day, I always look back to the old days(previous posts) with nostalgia. I would giggle, smile at things I used to have, and the person I used to be. Having said that, I don’t mean to say I hate my current life. I just prefer my old life. I like continuity and consistency very much. I don’t like change. But, I was once told, if the change is for the better then I will have learn to adapt. I can’t help to notice the changes around me. It is no longer in equilibrium. Well, that is just from my point of view, and maybe others too. I noticed I have changed too. no longer fun, no longer young, no longer bubbly, no longer naive. I do not know if it is for the better, or worse. nevertheless, I hoped for the former. Every day, to me, is like a long hike up a mountain. It is such a weary journey, with so many new challenges, obstacles and adventures to discover. Or let me put it this way, I have to simultaneously discover, learn and adapt to every single thing that is thrown at me. hence the physical, mental and emotion weariness. If you could grant me a wish, I wish I could have my life back. but, for the time being, I wish I could have my quirky, motley crew back.

By the way, beanie, do you still remember the resolution we made a couple years back? the one we made during Valentine’s Day. LOL. It was written a couple of years back and I still find it hilarious. Haha. must find a valentine before turning 21. So much for a resolution eh… LOL we are 22 already. and where is our valentine! XD


p.s. 4 tests next week. hence the emo post. in spite of everything, I still love every single one of you. Thank you for always being there for me.